Well, the class had an interesting start. When I say interesting, I mean a fail on my part to notice the time was eastern, not pacific standard. When I realized the time difference I practically fell over in a panic, running to the table to log into the Zoom session as fast as possible with my book ready to go. So I did miss a little of it. However, I read ahead to see what the material was and what exercise we’d be doing. So once I  logged in and was able to jump right into a breakout room on Zoom.

They paired us up with a partner. We’d take turns during our breakout time, one person being the Doula and the other being a client who just found out they had two months to live. So we role-played for quite some time. I loved every minute of the Doula role. For privacy reasons, I can’t share the contents of our conversation. The discussion was fruitful and very powerful. These are not easy conversations, nor is it easy to be deeply actively listening without “uh-huh” or “hmmm” inserts.

 I’m also a natural “fixer.” I want to fix and suggest. These practices are off-limits for a Doula. My place is to guide. I asked all open-ended questions to elicit more from the client and try to connect with them, draw out more emotion and really get to the heart of their concerns and wishes. This isn’t easy. It took complete presence and tuning out any distractions. There were tears with some. Considering your mortality is an emotional act, and when you get into the details, such as the family that may be left behind, kids, or areas that might need closure, it weighs heavily.

My next class is Saturday morning, so I’ll have more to update with, but I feel like I’m in my place so far. I love it.